Akosua Dardaine Edwards

Let's Share Lessons on The Journey

Akosua Dardaine Edwards - author, writer, coach, gender specialist, speaker

 

[What did I learn today? Lessons on the Journey to Unconditional Self Love] A balancing act

There's no ease, no expansiveness, no faith in oneself or trust in the
world, when you avoid making choices that would lift you up, because you're
afraid of not having enough money.

It's a fear of being defined by your (low) bank account numbers. It's a fear that you lack resourcefulness to find solutions if the shit hit
the fan. It's a fear that you don't know how to deal with the stress of a serious
financial challenge. It's a fear that the world, your world, will fall apart.

The fear - yea the fear of having no money for me is real, the struggle....
is real! And yet the Course in Miracles says nothing real can be threatened
and nothing real falls away. So I must be hallucinating or something...

Deep down I know that it is really all a big heap of fear and I will admit,
confessions on the journey, that I find myself deep in the heap.

This month, oh my word, a shovel and back hoe seemed to be required to get
me out of the deep heap as I was down to my last 20 bucks, I haven't been
here in a while.

I was trained as an accountant, I read many books on savings and
investment, I followed many of the principles, saved ten percent of my
income, invested in mutual funds, paid myself first yadda yadda yadda

and in a flash it was gone -well not a flash but you know what I mean...

Choices rooted in fear and notenoughness will inevitably result is chaos
and more fear and so that is what manifested in my life resulting in
the "loss" of those material things.

And so it was I did all those things in fear of losing it to show the world
that I had it all together. All the reasons not to do something! And so after the "loss"I said - what's the point, I might as well live my
life and ignore all that so called good advice - another fear - detachment
is a subtle form of fear, pretending you do not care to avoid being hurt
again.

A balance, I have learnt, is required

According to my grandma - everything in moderation, even moderation in
moderation

My choice now is to plant the seed and believe, do the work and believe,
set the intention to live life abundantly and trust that it will happen
and... believe

I have some awesome angels around me and one of them have stepped in to
play the role of business manager and this I have seen immediate effects

There is the choice of jumping on the Scarcity loop or the Abundance loop

and trust me abundance comes in to my life in so many different forms And just as I was about to spend the $20bucks, someone called me for a
cheque- abundance comes in many ways and always right on time

Peace!

-- Posted By Blogger to What did I learn today? Lessons on the Journey to
Unconditional Self Love on 3/01/2016 11:56:00 am

Your story is inspiring, your delivery is real
— Barbara Ince, President - Maloney Women's Group
The students who attended the function were so inspired by you they want all their friends to be exposed to your story.
— Cherisse Rawlins - Teacher Moruga Secondary
I must thank you for your presentation, many people were blown away by it.
— Sharon Christopher, Dep CEO First Citizens Bank Limited
It was a pleasure hosting you. Your reading from Nyabo (Madam) Why Are You Here? - was both thought provoking and insightful, thank you.
— Consulate General of the Republic of Trinidad and Tobago - New York
You are an inspiration to us all
— Marlene Charles, YWCA President
I can’t stop telling people about your presentation. You changed my life forever!
— Michele Celestine, Executive Director Heroes Foundation
What an honour and priveledge it was for me and my wife to host you during your stay in Washington DC
— Anthony WJ Phillips-Spencer, Ambassador Extraordinary Embassy of the Republic of Trinidad and Tobago
Unveiling was exactly what I needed, thank you.
— Participant at 2017's Unveiling- Looking into the Mirror of Self
Akosua, congratulations and thank you for that fabulous and thoughtful sharing from your book. I did NOTHING for the weekend but read your books. Madam, I found your story telling light and entertaining, true Trini style but DEEP.
— Sandra Ferguson, Agency for Rural Transformation, Grenada W.I
After hearing Ms. Akosua speak, I now know that I am everything and that I have everything to become who I want to be.
— Jenna Marie Bharat, Student- San Juan South Secondary School
Madam Akosua was awe inspiring. Excellent motivational skills. For me as a new retiree her words encourage me to “give back to the village”
— Anthea Doyle
Inspirational for both year groups. Forms 3 and 5. They were at the edge of their seats. prodding them to plan and even when things do not go as planned... to never give up when faced with life’s challenges
— San Juan South Secondary School