Akosua Dardaine Edwards

Let's Share Lessons on The Journey

Akosua Dardaine Edwards - author, writer, coach, gender specialist, speaker


What did I learn today? Lessons on the Journey to Unconditional Self Love - Am I giving love or am I simply afraid to leave

If we believe that our happiness lies in another person's behavior, we are
going to be sorely disappointed. There is not a human being on this planet that can make you or me happy. If they could, we would be their slave because we would have also given them the power to withdraw our happiness at any moment. Relationships are a learning experience. Our goal is to have harmonious and loving relationships with ourselves. Ruth Clotworthy

We had lunch at one of "our" favorite spots. They knew us as a young
ambitious couple, when we walked in the spot hugs and kisses passed with the hosts, they knew the table we liked, it was made ready.

We came in separate cars, why? because we were separated, living separate lives yet pretending that we were still the married happy loving ambitious couple. As we sat down, my insides were churning, is this the day my happiness returns?

We sat and talked about the past, how we are a team and we can do anything together, totally side stepping the elephant in the room! That he was living with someone else and that I was so unconscious and in denial of myself and my worth that I was willing to forgive and forget it all just to "have my happiness back!"

He told me that he was moving back later on that day, that today is the day.

Yes, happiness has returned, I was happy, I am happy, yet why does my tummy hurt so much? I am happy right? Am I not supposed to feel better? I decided that the feelings were unimportant, happiness will be returned today.

Fast forward to the night, no sign of him, then a text came " I am never
coming back, good bye"

I walked to the bottom of my hill feeling helpless and in a daze! My
happiness is gone. What do I do now? I stood at the bottom of the hill for
about an hour, what else is there to do at this moment? Is there anything
else to make me happy? I thought it was impossible.

It took some time to get to the point of realizing and owning that I had
indeed outsource my happiness and it is my responsibility to create and
live the life that I want, to do things that make me happy.

Blame and projection is easy, its easy to say someone else should do Allow me to accept that blame diminishes me, and puts out my spark and
hands by power over to another

So here is my lesson: As easy as it is to blame someone else, to try to ignore what you feel, to call your pain a sacrifice for love, you are not being loving or wise to do so. Eventually you will be held responsible for everything you experience and how you have responded to it. Love does not ask us to lose ourselves, harm ourselves or sacrifice ourselves for its sake. Love offers itself to us, measure for measure what we offer it If you are being dishonored and disrespected for the love you give, you
must ask yourself "Am I really giving love, or am I simply afraid to leave?

I now do something every single day that makes me happy and have topped outsourcing my happiness! Peace!

-- Posted By Blogger to What did I learn today? Lessons on the Journey to
Unconditional Self Love on 6/22/2015 03:06:00 pm

Your story is inspiring, your delivery is real
— Barbara Ince, President - Maloney Women's Group
The students who attended the function were so inspired by you they want all their friends to be exposed to your story.
— Cherisse Rawlins - Teacher Moruga Secondary
I must thank you for your presentation, many people were blown away by it.
— Sharon Christopher, Dep CEO First Citizens Bank Limited
It was a pleasure hosting you. Your reading from Nyabo (Madam) Why Are You Here? - was both thought provoking and insightful, thank you.
— Consulate General of the Republic of Trinidad and Tobago - New York
You are an inspiration to us all
— Marlene Charles, YWCA President
I can’t stop telling people about your presentation. You changed my life forever!
— Michele Celestine, Executive Director Heroes Foundation
What an honour and priveledge it was for me and my wife to host you during your stay in Washington DC
— Anthony WJ Phillips-Spencer, Ambassador Extraordinary Embassy of the Republic of Trinidad and Tobago
Unveiling was exactly what I needed, thank you.
— Participant at 2017's Unveiling- Looking into the Mirror of Self
Akosua, congratulations and thank you for that fabulous and thoughtful sharing from your book. I did NOTHING for the weekend but read your books. Madam, I found your story telling light and entertaining, true Trini style but DEEP.
— Sandra Ferguson, Agency for Rural Transformation, Grenada W.I
After hearing Ms. Akosua speak, I now know that I am everything and that I have everything to become who I want to be.
— Jenna Marie Bharat, Student- San Juan South Secondary School
Madam Akosua was awe inspiring. Excellent motivational skills. For me as a new retiree her words encourage me to “give back to the village”
— Anthea Doyle
Inspirational for both year groups. Forms 3 and 5. They were at the edge of their seats. prodding them to plan and even when things do not go as planned... to never give up when faced with life’s challenges
— San Juan South Secondary School
She is complete, sincere and true to herself. Akosua relates to you on what is common in all of us, our humanity.
— Odella Jowaheer