[What did I learn today? Lessons on the Journey to Unconditional Self Love] A better what?

Decide what you want- Jack Canfield

I'm tired this week, it's been one of the weeks when I am raising the vibes
because I just want to say to heck with it all! I know what my triggers
are, and that's important to know what ticks you off because you can then
recognize and take steps to get back on track! So why am I tired? The year started off with me in El Salvador and as part
of being there I had some great "me" time! And in that time I signed up for
about four programmes - self help programmes. You know the types which are
supposed to "make you better" To me, somehow in my mind I think that I have
to always be a better person. This week I'm tired of it! I think I will
just be me!

So I sat down and thought about it, I asked myself what is it really that I
want? A better what? What ow why am I searching for a better personality?
Ok I told you I was tired so therein lies the rant! But on a serious note, I'm advocating being your highest self, your best
self, I'm advocating knowing what your triggers are. What I am saying it
the continual searching and beating up on yourself is non! Start where you
are and know that is ok! It is ok to also want to be your best self but
it's not ok to judge and beat up and force it! Flow, surrender and know you
are doing the best that you can.

I know deep down that I am a good person, why is that not enough? Well
there is a 100 million question that triggered the rant!

I still haven't a clue what being penetrated by consciousness is supposed
to mean, but I'm pretty sure that happened this week when I walked on the
beach or when I bit into the sweetest watermelon that I have eaten in
months. I still get a ton done and make decisions quickly. I have focused
vision, my life purpose is still the most interesting thing to me and since
it's about helping others express their life's purpose.

What I do feel, is deeply loving and committed and a lot less interested in
how I fit into the so called norms of this life. I'll step up to handle
things with the same kind of decisiveness that's always been there, but
with a little more compassion and now I have started asking for help which
is a big step for me, or support or holding in return.

Do I need to be better? Sometimes. Does it matter? well maybe not. It's all
good! Peace!!

-- Posted By Blogger to What did I learn today? Lessons on the Journey to
Unconditional Self Love on 2/06/2015 02:05:00 pm